Veteran’s Depression

Veteran’s Depression

by Peter MacDonald

Depression in a Veteran is some times camouflaged by naïve minds around us that believe that they know but have no idea. I wrote a book about my time in service to this nation. “Marine Corps Gallantry or Psychosis” by Sgt Macdonald. The Book has been published but is no longer in sale.

I do not want people to believe this article is a sales pitch. I wrote the book so my 3 daughters would better understand their father. I came back in 74. Since this date I have re-lived events in my life over and over. Some people tell me that returning Veterans do not talk about what went on over there. I did not until I wrote the book in 99. I had to re-learn what life was back here in the “World” U.S. I am a disabled Veteran and one of my three separate injuries is Amnesia. I remember nothing to this day of my life prior to my overseas tour. Imagine coming back to round eyed country and never remember being here before. I learned volunteering to help others is a great way to better understand how life back here is.

Returning Veterans never talk about their first Kill. I have many times because I believe what I did was not wrong. I now question if what I did made any difference back here in the “World”. NH has declared me a Terrorist to stop my exposing judges and government official’s violating the people’s rights. The State Police harass my family at work and home under government orders. I loose my freedom as an intimidating factor to stop my free speech.

I volunteer over 1000 hours per year helping others and because NH does not like a family that I am volunteer helping this is what the government does. Can I prove it. Yes it is documented many times over! All this fails so now the U.S. NH Congress woman files false police reports to get me arrested. This fails so she has VA Dr Biswas file commitment orders with out merit to but me in the funny farm. This fails so the NH VA Director “Levenston” stops my VA medical care for political self gain. The news papers censor my letters and the facts. Where does one go when it is the Courts and government are the ones violating the laws, and the news protects them.

My first kill was before I remember kissing my first round eyed girl. I killed deep in the bush while American Advisor on Convoy. I stuck my bayonet into another human being to escape and get my M-16 back. I did it so easy and with out feeling. I to this day do not feel guilty about this wrongful act. I lived through some of the worst hell when I was in the Marine Corps but I am not a combat hardened Veteran. I was in the Marine Air Wing. My hell does not compare to most other combat hardened Veterans.

I write this article because people back here just have no idea. You allow the State of NH to destroy a Madbury NH family because the selectmen do not like this family living in there town. You and no one else can help me. Talking may not be the answer. I write this article because we gave our lives “dead or alive” for your freedom and protection. You will never conceive what hell is but you can attempt trying to understand why the great potential child that left now is homeless, uses excess drugs, alcohol and may be a bum on the street.

The Veteran may be successful and you just do not understand why family and relationships boy cot them. You have Veterans returning on this very day, don’t just reach out. Reach out and know Veterans are people that gave a precious part of their lives for your freedom that they will never get back. News censoring this veteran’s is a bigger danger to this country than President Bush is to the world. .

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi