Is Killing the Solution?

Is Killing the solution?

Written by Peter Macdonald

The hard cruel experience gained by practice in the field makes the task of killing emotionless. We are no longer children returning home. Brain washed machines that followed orders through the echoes of war are created. Heartless sons of Bitches that are dropped into a society that no longer accepts these children as their own.

We attempt to cast aside the survival tactics drilled deep into our brains and return to the life that only exists in unfocused memory. Some achieve the false image of normal existence only to be cautioned by returning visions.

Some are cast aside as homeless, drug addicts or just alcoholics. Other Veteran’s that unknowing act on the unfocused memory with the echoes of war survival tactics are doomed in a cage called prison for the eternal future. We defend a society that can no longer accept or understand that returning Veterans are beyond the medical capability of people that have never been there…

I left the U.S. in 1970 as a Marine PFC with no memory at all because of a Traumatic Brain Injury from a car accident.

An Admin error sent me to live a life where no person should ever go. I lived in conditions and learned how to do things that would make a rat puke. I learned that I was doing all this for a nation (U.S.) that I had no memory of. 

I became a Sgt in charge of other men that used these human beings as machines to complete missions in disregard of life itself. I killed  a child with a bayonet deep in the bush to escape and retrieve my M-16.

I came back to the Round eyed country (U.S.) believing that I was going to paradise. I got off the plane to be spit on and called a baby killer. I came to NH to have people that called themselves my friend use me.

I was lost for over 5 years before one day I realized that I was no longer in country (Marine Corps). I left the U.S. a proud Marine and came home a lost rat.

I started volunteering over 1000 hours per year as a way to justify coming home alive when better than me gave every thing. I started college as a way to learn what others called normal. I started dating round eyed girls because that is what other Marines called experience. I volunteer across NH helping people every day; disabled children, depressed adults, homeless, people starting businesses that could not afford to pay help, the courts and government and to this day I continue to help others.

The State of New Hampshire has labeled me a Terrorist under the Patriot act.

I will not be violent so the State continues to destroy me in the public. The News has censored the truth because I am a Veteran that should never have come home. I relive the echoes of war every day and wonder why I came back to paradise?

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi